Life and God

Life is funny. And so is God. Often it is easy to lose faith in God, based on your experience, fears and insecurity. But, it is in precisely those moments when we must look at God and realize that God loves us more than we can fathom, and all that crosses us, is through God´s Hand and Will.

You see, I have thought of many things while I have been here. I have seen things which cause me to question God, and I have experienced things which have made me appreciate the love and presence of God in the world.

Right now, I don´t really know what I want to write, but rather, I want to share the very rough and humbling thoughts I have in my head and heart right now.

I am no longer planning on playing soccer professionally. There is too much to do in the world. And aside from that, I know soccer would not give me the ultimate joy I seek. That joy is reserved for my family, current and future, and my continuous effort to bring justice and breed love in the world. Soccer would not do it. No, I need to be more active in me work. My call is not to play soccer as much as I enjoy it. My call is to be with a family and to write and study and act.

It will never be enough for me to just think of theories, and it will not be enough to just act. I need both, and more importantly, I need to speak to share with others. To create a like feeling in others. Rather, to help others find that piece within them that shows them they are undeniably connected to God and to others. To help all recognize the great gift that they are which we forget in moments of loneliness and sadness and to know that whatever it is, if it is in your heart, than it is in the Heart of God and is, as a result, a beautiful and necessary thing for the world.

I mean that is what this life is about. Being true to your heart and enjoying the beauty that God has placed as a gift for you. And knowing it is a gift, living without fear of sharing it. With that said, to remember too that God is caring for us. Regardless of religion or belief, God is caring for us and so we must trust God for God will not steer us wrong. We cannot control the world around us, but we can know that God can and does. Not all suffering is connected to God´s direct involvement, but God´s hand is guiding us in all times so that we may overcome that which we fear. So until the end, we must live and share.

Peace amigos and Merry Christmas! I love you and am missing you.